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Monday, December 15th, 2003
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fuck this drama shit.
i've moved to my friends only journal.
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) __catastrophe
i added everyone on this friends list to that list,
i hate everyone else.
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Wednesday, December 3rd, 2003
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me: :sitting down on the floor against the wall with my knees in my chest:
him: "aw, honey are you tired?" :brushes the hair out of my face:
me: "I'm exhausted"
him: "poor thing. do you want to go home?"
me: :nods head:
him: "okay, lets get you home" :kisses my nose, and pulls me into him:
this isn't supossed to be happening. it's SO wrong, but it feels SO right.
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Tuesday, December 2nd, 2003
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| Subject: | *dances* the possible new bachelorette pad. the home of the 2c4bcrew <333<3 |
| Time: | 2:51 am. |
| Mood: |  excited. | | Music: | No Hope for Heros - "A Promise..." <33. |
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Alright so me and Danielle<3 [girlfixerx] decided on this glorious apartment...
[it probably won't be vacant in 6 months, but hey]
living room {angle 1}
living room {angle 2}
kitchen
i like how it's open. it's supossed to be "loft type living". hot.
It's on Tremont Street. I'm so excited.
if you want you can donate to the Erin & Danielle furnishing for our Apartment Fund. we might reward you with sexual favors or soemthing. i kid.
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Cat came in today to fill out an application and take the Bertucci's test. i hope she gets the job, it would be so much fun. =)
i got out of work at 5:15, and met everyone at Ruby Tuesday's. we had so much fun. the chicken figners were pretty kick-ass too.
Then i went to Express and bought some new work pants, and saw this AHmazin' dress that i want so bad, i'm totally buying it with my next pay check. it's a tube top dress, thats pink, black, white, and light pink. it's so hot. i don't know where i'm going to where it, but i still need to have it.
when i got home from the mall i crashed and woke up at 11:45PM, i think the Ho's are mad at me, cause i was supossed to go over their house, but i couldn't get in touch with Sarah. meh.
tomorrow i'm taking Mikey to go see Brother Bear, then i have to work at 3. i hate working full time, it's fucking depressing.
if i don't have a silly crush before christmas, i'm going to kill myself.
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Sunday, November 30th, 2003
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| Time: | 12:59 am. |
| Mood: |  sleepy. | | Music: | Hot Rod Circuit - "Let's Go Home". |
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today sucked.
i worked from 5-10. Greg brought me an iced chai into work <333
then me and Jack went to Barnes & Noble to look for Motley Crue. The Dirt: Cofessions of the World's most Notorious Rock Band they didn't have it, so i bought my own copy of Perks of Being a Wallflower and some other Emo looking book. i'm excited to read TPOBW again, it was so fucking good. yeah i'm a nerd.
someone who isn't ugly misses you more.
i love Angelle.
Me and Jill are going to see NO HOPE FOR HEROS and Boys Night Out 12/28 at the Empress Ballroom in CT. and we're both gonna wear home-made NHFH shirts and on the back of mine it's gonna say "Justin Rose is effin' HOTT" it's gonna be scandalous. i'm stoked. i dunno what Jill's is gonna say yet, but i'll take pictures. it's gonna be a wicked good time. everyone should go. i can't wait to tell people in like a year that i slept in the lead singer from No Hope For Heros bed. yay Justin! i love your fucking ass.
someone who used to be a regular part of my life and hasn't been for awhile called my house today. it was weird, but i kind of liked it in an odd sort of way.
tomorrow is my day off, what a relief. me and Angelle are having a wannabethanksgiving at my Dad's with his fiance and his side of the family. how boring. what a waste of my only day off.
<3<3
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Friday, November 28th, 2003
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last night i hung out with Mike<3 and Matt, we went to Matt's house for a little while to wait for his girlfriend to show up, and she never did so we went for a ride in Mike's lexus. *swooooons*we drove around for like an hour, all over Lawrence (haha) and then he drove me home, and i played scrabble, i was pretty fucked up. i won because i spelled out "nigger" and then used one of the g's to spell out "gay". haha i rule.
today worked 10:30AM to 9:30PM. it sucked, we were so insanely busy. now i'm exhasuted.
tomorrow sleeping in, working 5-10. then hanging out with Mike<3.
i have come to the conclusion that Mike and Bertucci's are my life. this is disgusting.
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Thursday, November 27th, 2003
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| Time: | 3:27 pm. |
| Mood: |  thankful. | | Music: | Something Corporate - "Drunk Girl". |
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I'm thankful for;
Danielle Podlesnik
Jillian McCarthy
Sean Kane
cherry cheesecake
Michael Piro
Timothy Pagnotta
William Tell
sundays
Matt Damon
chai tea
&
Gregory Brown.
happy thanksgiving, i guess.
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Tuesday, November 25th, 2003
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sunday something corporate with justin. met up with jill, kysitin, and ross there. wicked fun. went back to justin's watched 15 minutes of super troopers and fell asleep in his bed.
monday woke up around 10, ate breakfast with justin while watching sports center, then went to the train station... was stuck at south station for 5 hours with 20 bucks in my pocket, i called everyone to see if i could get a ride back to my house, cause my mom wouldn't get me cause she was so mad at me. finally i caleld Greg Brown, and he told me to take the red line to Quincy Adams and he would pick me up there (GREG, I LOVE YOU SO MUUUUUUUUCH!) then we went to go pick up Jenn at BU, and him and Jenn ate food at the GSU and i sat there and drank the reject diet pepsi. then they drove me home, and i missed my class and my parents were PISSED. so my dad took me to Bertucci's to see if they would hire me full-time. so now i am working 50 hours a week, i am not exctied, honestly... what am i going to do with that much money? i really have no idea. went back to my house and was asleep by 9:00PM.
today worked 12PM-8:30PM went grocery shopping with my mom for thanksgiving, and now i am going to go watch TV and go to sleep. cause guess what i am doing tomorrow? yup, working from 12PM-10PM, on my feet AGAIN all fucking day long.
don't expect me to be on the computer much anymore, or hang out with anyone anymore. i don't have a social life.
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Saturday, November 22nd, 2003
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| Time: | 10:51 pm. |
| Mood: |  sick. | | Music: | Mae - "Summertime". |
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Dear Jillian Blay;
Corina Tarunfalo;
& Ginny Spacer,
Please Die.
Love,
Erin
Sooooooomething Corporate tomorrow, with Justin fucking Rose.
<333<3<33<3<3
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Thursday, November 20th, 2003
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| Subject: | every guy should read this |
| Time: | 11:53 pm. |
| Mood: |  creative. | | Music: | Mae - "Sun". |
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i just took the ones that apply to me.
3. I will leave if you lie. (sorry)
4. You are cute in raglan-sleeved T-shirts (two-toned baseball undershirts).
5. I'm convinced I'm pregnant and obsess about it for 24 to 48 hours before my period, even when i have no reason to think so.
6. I love it when you hug me from behind and whisper into my ear.
7. "Fine" is never an appropriate response when I ask you how I look.
8. Most of the time when I fantasize, it's about you.
10. I get turned on simply seeing that I have an e-mail from you.
11. I expect you to call me.
12. Only rock stars are allowed to wear leather pants.
15. Oral sex is your get-out-of-the-dog-house-free card.
16. You did something bad. I seem cool with it. I'm not.
17. If I'm not having sex with you, (a)I'm having a fat day; (b) I'm not feeling "connected" to you; or (c)I'm blackmailing you to get something I want.
18. Shoes determine whether you're fashionable or not.
19. I like sappy romance songs and I'm not afraid to play them.
21. A man I love plans the occassional fancy-shmancy dress up date and impromptu weekend getaways, and he buys my favorite candy in advance when we're just going to the movies.
22. You look hot in hooded clothing items.
23. You should never tell me what to do.
24. If I slept over, you owe me breakfast.
25. My breasts LOVE much licking and sucking.
27. I'm very impressed when you ask for my advice.
29. When in doubt, go with a shirt that matches your eye color.
30. I like to be kissed. A lot.
31. I like PDA's too. A lot.
32. I'm in heaven when you hold my hand.
33. You're sexy when you're shaving, fixing stuff, wearing white T-shirts and jeans, driving, eating a peach.
34. I need to hear how you feel about me. OFTEN. Tell me now.
35. Suprises, especially gifts for me = MORE SEX.
36. I want to be the best thing that's ever happened to you. And for you to recognize this.
37. If I'm not feeling loved, I will start looking.
38. Discussion of ex-bf's and ex-gf's should be avoided at all costs.
40. Celebrating our anniversary, even if it's only been a few months, earns major bonus points.
41. I love it when you're sweaty.
42. It's best to consult your gal-pals for gift ideas.
43. A lady should always be greeted with kisses.
45. I love holding your ass in the palms of my hands.
46. Even nice girls like hushed dirty talk in public.
47. It's cheating as soon as you're doing something with her that you wouldn't want me to see, hear, read, etc.
48. For the record: I'd rather you break up with me than cheat.
49. I remember EVERYTHING from our relationship.
50. You should know all this without me telling you.
51. if you don't lick that clit, we dont want that dick! Oral sex is a part of life, get used to it.
52. And guys, don't deny it, girls give way more head than they receive.
53. Yes, size DOES matter. If we say it doesn't, that's cuz you have a small penis hahahaha.
55. You suck in bed if A) I don't cum, B) You're done before the song on the radio is over, or C) The tv is on and I'm watching it instead of you.
56. If you want us to enjoy sex, then foreplay should last longer than the blink of an eye. We don't want no one minute man.
57. We will suck you off, we will even let you shoot it on our face, just DON'T get it in our hair!!!
58. Always remember the Golden Rule: Treat a girl how she wants to be treated!
59. Change it up a little, for the love of God. If you plan on doing missionary position every time, then you may as well buy us a magazine to read, just let us know when you're done.
63. Learn to be multi-talented. Meaning, if you're trying to unhook our bra, don't become so concentrated on it that your lips stop moving.
64. Learn how to give good oral sex, especially if your dick is small cuz that's all we'll want from you anyways.
65. If you lie to us or cheat on us, we will slap you. In front of all your friends.
66. The only men that are good in bed are the ones that actually care about whether or not their girlfriend came.
67. I will watch porn with you (Ahem, Shawn) hahaha
60. I repeat and will never stop telling you to SCRUB YOUR FUCKIN BALLS...they get sweaty under there and it is NOT a good thing...
69. <---- Take a chance and try it for a change...
71. Most likely you lie to us because you are a rotten bastard and have done something wrong. When we lie to you, it's either cuz we didn't cum, don't like your mother, think your dick is small, or think your band really sucks and we just didn't wanna hurt your feelings.
72. Appreciate a woman or she will not be around when you need her the most.
73. Pay attention to us or we will find it from some other guy.
74. Give us affection or we will "accidentally" bite you while giving you head.
75. FYI: "The average erect penis is 6.0 inches (15 cm.) Almost 90 percent of men fall within the range of 5 to 7 inches in length." Just so you all know the TRUTH now.
78. You think having anal sex with you will keep us around? Find the G-spot and we'll talk about keeping YOU around...
79. If you've slept with a lot of girls, I should at least hope you got some skills out of it, aside from the STDS.
85. It is not cool to brag about how many chicks you've banged, how big your dick is, or how much you can bench press, cuz we both know half of it is a bunch of lies anyways.
86. Dont think you're a badass just cuz you like to hook up when you're drunk. Girls are the same way, we are just better at it cuz we made you think we liked you.
87. You know your friends think we are hot. I just bet you didn't know they hit on us every time you leave the room though.
88. Sweetness pays off in more ways than one, so stop acting like an asshole and start acting your age for once.
89. If we wanna impress you, we buy a new outfit, spend an hour doing our hair and makeup perfectly, stop eating for about a week before we plan on wearing it, and pray to God you like it. When you wanna impress us, you shower. And maybe, if we're lucky, you shave too.
90. You don't have to squeeze our tits so hard that you're about to rip them off...how would you like us to do that to your nutsack??
91. Don't underestimate the intelligence of a woman. Revenge is our middle name. Mwhahahahaha (yeah, thats why i made out with your best friend, whoops)
96. Please dont think of wearing anything other than boxers under your clothes. Tighty whities are just soo...not cool.
97. If you ever lay a HAND on us, not only are you gone without saying, but also be prepared to get your ass kicked by about 15 of our closest guy friends.
98. For the record, deep throating is harder than it looks, especially for girls with small throats and gag reflexes. So don't give us shit if we choke, just be glad we're doing it in the first place.
99. Just so you know, we tell our girlfriends everything. That's right. EVERYTHING.
oh wait, more?!
3. Sex after the two of you have shared a bottle of wine is fun. Sex after you've had a few drinks and she's had nothing is torture.
4. Especially if those drinks were tequila shots, or, say, Zima.
5. Chicks don't dig guys who drink Zima.
9. In bed, find a happy medium between grave silence and "Yeah bitch! Ride me like a stallion!"
10. Actually, that's kinda hot.
13. Not having sex on her birthday, your birthday and holidays on which banks are closed is bad.
14. Not having sex with her every time she wants it is also bad.
25. When we ask you to push our buttons, we don't mean our nipples. That hurts.
26. And so does sucking on them as though you expected milk to flow from them.
29. Wear a condom if we tell you to.
30. Offer to wear a condom even if we don't ask.
32. No matter what she tells you to the contrary, she wants you to send her flowers at work.
33. Or presents. We love presents anytime, anywhere.
34. But work is always best.
37. Men who can cook are terribly sexy.
38. Gold necklaces with giant anchors, crosses, Italian horns, or Mercedes charms on them are not sexy.
39. If you have to ask if we came, we didn't.
48. We like to wear your clothes.
49. We would not like for you to wear ours.
50. Play music while we make love.
51. No, not Metallica.
52. Don't pick up the phone during sex. ha, "hi dad"
53. Even if it's your broker.
56. Learn how to change positions without pulling out.
57. Make out with us.
60. Photograph us in the nude.
71. Use whipped cream in bed
80. We get mad when you fall asleep immediately after sex.
81. Maybe not mad, but disappointed nonetheless.
82. We'll swallow, but know this: it doesn't taste good.
91. Having phone sex with us is cool.
92. Having phone sex with us on speakerphone with your buddies listening in is not cool.
99. Kiss us after we give you head.
100. Now you know how gross your cum tastes.
101. When you're ready, say those three little words that we love to hear: "Let's go again!"
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Wednesday, November 19th, 2003
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today was... interesting.
Sarah woke me up at 8, and took me out to breakfast because i have been so fucking sad lately. we wnet to IHOP.. it was wicked good and pretty cheap. and she had nothing to do untill one, so we drove to Andover, and parked there, and took the commie rail to North Station. we called everyone on the way there, and everyone was in class. booooo. so we just got two vanilla chai's and got back on the commuter rail and headed back to Andover. being with Sarah is awesome.. i hardly ever hang out with her anymore, it makes me sad. but just beiog with her and being our goofy selves reminded me so much of last year and all the days when we skipped class and went to resturaunts and stole menus, or the flippy special things. i miss the end of the school year last year so much, i was so... happy.
today is my only day off this week. eat me.
sunday should be fun.
bye.
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| Subject: | I.... |
| Time: | 9:07 am. |
| Mood: |  contemplative. | | Music: | Mae - "Skyline Drive". |
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I am: drinking coffee.
I love: sugarcult, somethign corporate, my best friends.
I hate: you
I fear: being un-loved.
I hope: i'll get excellent tips tonight
I hear: mae
I crave: an english muffin.
I regret: sex.
I cry: over him
I care: way too much
I always: give.
I believe: that someday i will be happy.
I feel alone: right now.
I listen: to everyone.
I hide: my sadness.
I drive: drunk.
I sing: horribly.
I dance: amazingly? :oP
I write: love letters.
I play: soccer.
I miss: him.
I learn: by doing.
I feel: emptyness
I know:
I say: "wicked retahded"
I succeed: not very often.
I dream: of living with Danielle, Lara, & Angelle.
I wonder: if i will ever love anyone as much i love you.
I want: to forget you.
I have: fucked up.
I give: to omuch.
I fell: way too fast, way too hard.
I fight: with my sister, everyday.
I need: to get away from this house.
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Tuesday, November 18th, 2003
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| Subject: | but this is where you should be, here with me.or i'll bleed, so much that you won't believe. |
| Time: | 12:26 am. |
| Mood: |  confused. | | Music: | Something Corporate - "The Runaway". |
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i can't stop thinking about that night you were so cute, you reminded me of that teddy bear i have on my bed. you were too nervous to kiss me. but it needed to be done, i kissed you. i felt those sparks i know you're supossed to feel when a kiss really means something, you showed me the meaning of 'butterflies in my tummy'. the light was broken when you left my room that night after we did our thing, and apparently so was the light in your head, because you said "erin, i have to make up my mind". i miss you already and it's only been a few days. but now i look back, and you don't remind me of that teddy bear so much, because that teddy bear has never left my bed, especially when i felt so insecure.
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i forgot to mention that today is my best friends in the entire world's birthday! happy birthday, Angelle. (rainy_sunday)
i love you.
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Monday, November 17th, 2003
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so where did we leave off? Saturday night.
Sunday was one of the better days i have had in a long time. the night before me and Angelle didn't fall asleep untill around 5AM. and Kevin was a fucking riot.. i have never heard anyone that drunk in my life. so on sunday we woke up at 11AM and went to the Cambridge Side Galleria, and spent 50 bucks at the cheesecake factory, they sang Happy Birthday to Angelle, it was a good fucking time. then we went back to the Condo and went to the Tavern on the Water for drinks, with Greg & Brendon. then i went to sleep at 7:30PM.
Monday i woke up at 8:30, brought Mike to school and went to Dunkie's and got breakfast. i came home and took pictures and talked to Mike while he was at work. then i hung out with Shane, and Gary... we went to Newbury Comics, the Mall, and Wal-Mart. i saw CHRIS at Wal-Mart and he molested me, it was a good time.
then i came home, went to class and almost died of boredom. yup thats was my exciting 2 days.
tomorrow is Angelle's birthday! yaaaay. i love you.
Now it's time to wake up my Nicholas.
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Sunday, November 16th, 2003
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| Subject: | blaaaaaah |
| Time: | 2:47 am. |
| Mood: | emo.. | | Music: | Angelle typing on the other computer. |
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enough with this, hooking up with a different guy every week shit.. i want a nice, sweet caring, loving, gentle, sensitive, strong, cute, adoring boyfriend who will cuddle with me, kiss me, protect me, and who will be proud to claim me.
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| Time: | 1:29 am. |
| Mood: |  lazy. | | Music: | Bring Down the House in the back ground.. |
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let me sum today up,
TGIFridays, new jacket, carryout all by myself on a saturday night, 35 bucks in tips, Gelle & Drew came in, closed up shop, got pizza, drove Drew home, Gelle is staying the night, Bringing Down the House, i tried to introduce Angelle to her vagina (didn't work), lots of diet pepsi, and girl talk.
Erin & Angelle's plans for tomorrow
Cambridge Side Galleria, Cheesecake Factory, spending lots of money, eating lots of food, boy watching, and riding on the T.
Goodnight.
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Thursday, November 13th, 2003
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Thing to do
· open up a bank account
· ask for more hours / get a second job.
· buy something corporate tickets
· find a cheap 2 bedroom apartment in either Allston, Brighton, Brookline, Cambridge, or Charlestown.
· ask Dani, Lara, & Shane how much they are willing to pay.
· find 2 more roomates [comment if interested]
· go to the doctors
· find Matty a job and or a position in a band.
· do my research paper for FOW.
· finish my project for Pop Culture.
· get a new cell phone
· save money for NYC.
Things to look forward to
11/13 ¤ getting paid
11/16 ¤ hanging out with Adri? [missfallenstar]
11/20 ¤ Kevin's 20th birthday! <3
11/21 ¤ staying the weekend at Joe [joeyroodogg] and Jim's [xhardcoreiconx]
11/23 ¤ Something Corporate w/ Justin [comsec]
11/28 ¤ Brand New / Straylight Run w/ Kevin
11/28-11/30 ¤ weekend in New York at Kevin's
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Wednesday, November 12th, 2003
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| Subject: | you're my good feeling |
| Time: | 11:36 pm. |
| Mood: | cozy. | | Music: | Piebald - "American Hearts". |
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last night he kissed my forehead and told me about "the butterflies", and how beautiful i was.
i can feel myself falling..
this is no good.
[edit] i don't know if i like this picture or not...
let mje know what you guys think, please. <3 [/edit]
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| Subject: | happiness |
| Time: | 12:55 am. |
| Mood: |  giggly. | | Music: | Stretch Armstrong - "For The Record". |
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things that make me happy.
+ dunkacinos
+ blistex
+ Nick
+ sugarcult
+ Justin
+ something corporate
+ Danielle
+ cute LJ comments
+ belt buckles
+ green
+ roxy <3
+ palm trees
+ silano pizza
+ onion rings
+ corny pick up lines
+ cuddling
+ kisses
+ brand new
+ road trips
+ puppies
+ stitch
+ matt damon
+ cheesecake
+ good will hunting
+ diet pepsi vanilla
+ talking in baby voices
+ pet names
+ bull dogs
+ peach iced tea
+ watching Full House @ 5AM.
+ photography
+ ALEX!
more to come...
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rejected.
frustrated.
nervous.
aggravated.